Sunday, July 26, 2009

ooh, it's still here, just like i left it...

the idea of blogging again has been in my mind a lot lately. watch this space :)

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Gee, it's dusty in here...

Just popping in to see what's happening and to say Happy New Year and Happy Birthday to Shirl.

2009 has started out pretty good. Let's hope it stays that way!

Monday, July 7, 2008

do you remember...

that girl i used to know?

well, guess what? she never really went away. she just got a little lost.

she is still totally clueless when it comes to money
she is still utterly hopeless with men
she still has an apartment full of junk that needs to be sorted
she still does not know what she wants to do when she grows up
she is still trying hard to reconnect with the friends she has neglected
she still counts dogs
she still obsesses about music
she will still submit to bouts of depression

but she is here, she is smiling and for now, she is happy.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

prairie dogging

just popping up to dump some brainfluff that wiggled it's way out of my frontal lobes today...

it is probably way too much information but it's the truth.

i realised that my birthday is 5 weeks from today. a short while later i was pleased to acknowledge that i was not overwhelmed with my usual mid-life crisis pre-birthday depression/take a long walk off a short pier thoughts. considering that for the last few years i have always thought that i was 47, actually turning 47 is going to be a good thing.

Sunday, November 11, 2007


iv bin lolz'ed...

found in the b3ta newsletter.

when you cross lolcats with postsecret, you get this!

for more lolcats silliness, go here :)


Monday, November 5, 2007

I was tagged by Julie: of course there are rules: answer the questions, tag 5 people and then go off on your travels to their hometowns. The hardest part is that you can only give one answer for each of the questions. No ties, which sucks.


Best place to eat. Having a major university and hospital nearby, there are so many to choose from. My personal favourite: sushi fusion

Best shopping mall.
Bondi Junction is the newest but full of designer wankery. I'll go with (B)Eastgardens.

Famous Landmark. Royal Randwick Racecourse

Best tourism attraction.
Coogee beach

Best place for kids.
Umm, I dunno...

Popular outdoor activity. Picnics in Centennial Park

Breathtaking view. Right here

Let's see. Tag five, eh? I would like to tag alice and mal (my other three readers have already been tagged...)

Monday, October 29, 2007

Unconcious mutterings

I say ... and you think ... ?

Inaugural :: Initial
Pledge :: Polish
String :: G
Trot :: Harold Park
Fitness :: Camp
Cinder :: Ella
Edge :: Precipice
31 :: 1992
Blue :: Redhead
Leather :: Fetish

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Strange Days


I went to (B)Eastgardens to do a spot of shopping this afternoon. On the bus over there, two young boys sitting in front of me were talking and one said to the other "Hey, you can find out so much stuff on Facebook - I never knew that your sister was going out with [insert boy's name here]". I had a brief internal chuckle over that comment.

When I got home, there was message on my phone from Mr 1977. I was quite curious as we lost touch again after our brief reunion a few years ago. Curiosity got the better of me and I did a quick Facebook search and found two people who I believe are his kids. If my assumption that these are his children is correct, there was a clue on one of the profiles about what is going on in his life. I guess I will just have to wait until he calls again to get confirmation...

So, to the present. The usual stuff is happening - go to work, come home, sleep, repeat. Would you believe this night owl now finds it hard to stay awake past 10.30pm?? My new job starts on November 12th and I am soooo looking forward to that day. I have enrolled in a hulahooping course - the first class was last Wednesday and I am hopeless at it. When I was a kid, I could do it without thinking; now I cannot get the damn hoop to stay up, no matter how hard I try. I will persevere but the embarrassment factor may cause me to drop out :)

Sunday, October 14, 2007


Excuse me while I waffle on...

Using public transport to get to the places I have to go means that I have plenty of free time to think some more about the stuff that has changed in my head. I realise that the anxiety has also gone. I used to get all wound up (usually over nothing at all) and end up in a fog as I would almost hold my breath. It seemed like I was breathing just enough to remain conscious, leaving little room for any sort of rational thought. There have been some events that in previous times have left me limp and useless, yet the same situations in recent times were far less stressful.

I sometimes fear that the depression and anger and anxiety will come back and swamp me again but somewhere deep within, I'm kinda certain that it wont. I guess the only person who can prevent that happening is me :)

Consciously Muttering madly to myself...

1. Illicit :: Drugs
2. Go :: Stay
3. Jacket :: Leather - edit: doh!! fixed this one :)
4. Blow :: Job - the first word that came to mind *blush*
5. Coach :: Greyhound
6. Effort :: Joint
7. Leadership :: Skills
8. Snore :: Roar &...
9. Fearless :: Jeff Bridges
10. Network :: Social

Tuesday, October 9, 2007


Borrowed from Tien, who has always had faith in me :)

I am a cuddler - So very very true
I am a morning person - false
I am a perfectionist - false
I am an only child - false
I am Catholic - false
I am currently in my pajamas - true, well at least I'll be going to bed without changing what I'm wearing...
I am currently single - mostly true
I am currently suffering from a broken heart - false
I am okay at styling other people’s hair - false
I am left handed - false
I am addicted to my myspace - false [ Facebook? true :) ]
I am very shy around the opposite gender AT FIRST - true
I bite my nails - false
I can be paranoid at times - true
I currently regret something that I have said - true
When I get mad I curse frequently - true
I like someone – true
I enjoy country music - true
I enjoy jazz music - false
I enjoy smoothies - true
I enjoy talking on the phone – true
I have a pet - false
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal - true (Those who are closest to me know)
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” person - true
I have all my grandparents - false
I have at least one sibling - true
I have been told that I am smart - true
I got higher then C’s in school - true
My GPA is higher than 2.5 - No idea, WTF is a GPA??
I have broken a bone - true
I have Caller I.D. on my phone - Mobile - true, Landline - false
I have bathed/showered with someone - true
I have changed a diaper - true - Only once - We both ended up on tears and covered in poo :(
I have changed a lot over the past year - true
I have done something illegal - true
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair - true
I have had surgery - true
I have killed another person - false (and if I had, would I admit it here?)
I have had my hair cut within the last week - false
I have had the cops called on me - false
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t - true

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Not Drowning, Waving...

No, I have not disappeared in a puff of smoke. I still exist. So much has changed yet so much remains the same.

Where do I begin? Something happened and it happened so fast that I cannot identify the exact moment it happened. The best description I can give is that the stored anger and misery that I have contained within my emotional (and physical) person for so long has vanished, just like that. The puff of smoke happened but it left ME behind.

For the first time in ages I am happy. Pure and simple, happy. I like my life.

Since this strange event, good things have happened.

On a whim (and due to the power of internet advertising), I booked myself a two day trip to Melbourne to see an exhibition of works from the Guggenheim musuems. While there, I had a wee blog/flickr meet with the lovely Julie at the 2nd hand bookstore where she works (lucky duck!) - that is her at the top, where we sent a greeting across the universe to the our mutual friend, Shirl. (Hello Shirl :) - this blogpost is especially for you.)

I won tickets to see Steely Dan in a radio quiz. It was 6.10 in the morning and I called up and the phone rang and rang. I hung up thinking I had called the wrong number and immediately cursed myself for being so daft. A minute or two later, the phone rang - it was the girl from the radio station calling back to say they had had a contestant drop out and I was in :) The questions were pretty easy and when I won, I just knew that I was meant to be there.

The best news of all - I have a new job. It is in the same company but in a different team. It involves digging and poking to find out the wheres and whys of a particular problem that has happened and then working on fixing it. Very hard to describe but it is the kind of stuff I like to do :) There is even a small payrise involved!

I'm not saying that my life is now perfect and I don't expect that it ever will be but the horizon no longers seems so daunting.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007


Oops! I keep putting off blogging until 'later'. By the time I finish playing on Flickr and Facebook, later becomes too late :(

I have much to tell - a trip to Melbourne, some good luck and a new job...

I promise to write more later!

Monday, September 3, 2007

Please Amuse Yourselves

I'm off to Melbourne for two days :) While I'm there, I plan to see this exhibition and have a wee blog/flickrmeet.

Before I go, here are some Unconcious Mutterings - I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Scrabble :: The Man in Blue
2. NyQuil :: Benadryl
3. Roadtrip :: Palm Beach
4. Idiot :: Village
5. Bandages :: Mummy
6. Series :: The Lakes
7. Summer :: of Love
8. Prompt :: Tele...
9. September :: My favourite month
10. Chicken :: Tonight

Friday, August 31, 2007


Shirl finds the best quizzies :)

Your Kiss is Black

Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique.
You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance.
When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead.
You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss.

Kissing Type: Thoughtful

People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal

You Kiss Best With: A Pink Kisser

Stay away from: A Green Kisser


Freudian Inventory Results
Oral (43%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own.
Anal (43%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity, order and chaos, variety and selectivity.
Phallic (76%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity.
Latency (43%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests.
Genital (56%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life.
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Even though it is Friday, I'm going to follow Julie's lead and do Thursday 13

Things I like beginning with R:

1. Red - Clothes, shoes, hair, food - If it is red, I will love it (except capsicum/peppers)
2. Reading - I cannot understand people who don't read!
3. Real coffee - None of that instant rubbish for this caffeine fiend.
4. Real people - Fake plastic celebrity wannabes make me wanna puke.
5. Raspberries - yum, yum, yum, yum!
6. Red wine - but only in small quantities
7. Running amok on the internet :)
8. Really expensive French perfume - especially when I can find it at a good price :)
9. Rubbing a freshly shaved scalp or chin - not that it happens very often :(
10. Running through a pile of fallen autumn leaves and hearing that satisfying crunch.
11. Rolling over and going back to sleep when I wake up early and then remember that I'm on holidays.
12. Running into old friends who have been absent for a while and renewing the friendship.
13. Reaching the end of this - it was tough to think of 13 things!

and Friday Fill-In

1. The last time someone flirted with me was the cab driver previously mentioned.
2. I am SO glad that I am on holidays.
3. Where in the world are my 2004 tax papers?
4. Long weekends are sanity savers.
5. Coming up next: A nap on the couch.
6. I adore my new camera.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to watching a DVD (Restoration), tomorrow my plans include going to the staff ball and Sunday, I want to sleep in!

I had lunch with HarryO and MattR at the pub at Coogee today. I drank maybe one too many ciders so now I'm off to the couch for that nap :)

art auction/sale @ the mori gallery to save sandon point

a flickrfriend, tapperboy, left me a comment about this art auction/sale to raise funds to help the fight to save sandon point - read here and here for more details. i went along wednesday morning to have a look at the art works and the people organising the event were still hard at work, getting it all set up. i figured that while i was there and there were things to be done, i might as well lend a hand. i had a lot of fun with these lovely dedicated people and ended up going back again thursday. i'm not sure i'll be able to attend the auction on saturday but if i can reschedule my day, i'll be there! if you can make it, that would be great!

3pm, saturday september 1st, 2007
mori gallery
168 day street, sydney - (bottom of bathurst street, turn left - don't walk all the way up four flights of stairs to find out that the gallery is on the ground floor - i did!!)

Monday, August 27, 2007

Weekend Roundup

We finally went on our road trip to Palm Beach on the weekend. Despite the Saturday afternoon traffic on the way out of suburbia, it was a lovely day for a drive. I have not been up that way for about 30 years and I was happy to see that it has not become overly built up. We had a lovely lunch at the Sugar Palm restaurant - the dessert was divine :)

After lunch we went for a drive through the Kuringai National Park to a place called Akuna Bay. It has a marina where there are heaps of fancy boats moored and it has a rather amaziong rack and stack where boats are stored in a big barn on three stories and loaded and unloaded from a forklift/crane. I'm not a really a big fan of boats and all that water stuff but I enjoyed our visit enough to suggest we return and hire a boat for a day.

Saturday night was spend with my friend from work, Mav. She had her 25th birthday last week and celebrated in style by hiring a stretch hum-vee to drive around the city for an hour before making a celebrity entrance at a nightclub. It was so much fun, helped along by a few bottles of bubbles.

Sunday was a much quieter day. I did most of the housework and then went to see No Reservations with Miss E. I've added Aaron Eckhart to my lust list :) and thoroughly enjoyed the film - I agree with Shirl and give it 3/4. Sunday night, I used my Filmink freebie to go and see Once with Mr Wednesday Night. He seemed a bit ambivalent about it but I liked it a lot, especially the music and give it 4/4.

I'm a bit late for Unconcious Mutterings...

Uneven :: wonky
Wonder :: Stevie, bra
Spider :: little miss muffett
Emma :: Bunton
Swing:: out Sister
Orbit :: bar
Flirt :: Um, that would be me :)
Donation :: organ
Veil :: seven
Atmosphere :: The Kármán line

...but I'm right on time for Monday Madness!

Otto says 'Here are some weather-related questions.... Thank you for playing and have an awesome week! =)'

1. Where you live, what kind of weather (or weather-related tragedy) do you fear the most? The truth is, where I live, the worst I can worry about is a really bad thunderstorm. The bushfires that can be so distressing in our hot summers don't come close enough to be a concern (and if they did, it would be a pretty bad fire season.)
2. What kind of weather do you MOST enjoy? Just like it is this week - late Winter, coming up to Spring, with temps between 21° & 25°C with blue skies and crisp mornings. The best part is, I'm on holidays!
3. What kind of weather do you LEAST like to drive in? I don't drive but I hate being any any vehicle without air-conditioning when it is hot and humid.
4. What is the scariest weather-related experience you've had in your lifetime? The worst I can think of is being caught in the rain without an umbrella. Worse still, making a detour to buy an umbrella only to get outside and the rain has stopped - you would not believe how many brollies I own due to this quirky weather phenomenon :)
5. Share a "weather picture" with us! how about this one :)

Tuesday, August 21, 2007


Today was a good day. My friend Jennifer, works for the same company, in the same building yet we hardly ever see each other. She came to visit today to give me an udpate on her sick kitty, her gorgeous 4 year old son and the new home that her and James are renovating. I also had lunch with Tash, the girl who used to sit next to me - she moved to a new job at a different company back in June. The good bit is, she now works in the building right next door :)

I did some overtime tonight - If we work past 7pm, we get a taxi home, on the company account. I usually get into the cab, tell the driver where I want to go and there is usually no more conversation until I get to my street. Tonight's driver was a very chatty and quite cheeky as well. He was very engaging and we had a rather interesting conversation about age, beauty (mine) and relationships. By the end of the trip, he was keen to convince me that I need a toy boy, specifically a 24 year old taxi driving toy-boy. While he was cute (tall, dark curly hair, italian, mmmm), I did not take him too seriously.

I do have his card with his mobile phone number - just in case I ever need a cab. Believe me, that will be the only time I'll be calling that number.

It must still be Monday somewhere in the Universe, so I have to have a go at Monday Madness!

1. How many desktop computers in your home? Just one, unless I count the old one that still sits in the junk room, nearly three years after the current one was purchased...
2. How many laptops? Only the one that appears when I sit down and disappears when I stand up...
3. What kind of internet service do you have? (i.e. phone modem, dsl, etc.) ADSL
4. Do you tend to use more than one email account regularly? Yes, I have way too many email addresses...
5. Do you use email as a main source for communicating to your family and friends? Friends? Definitely. With my sisters, 99% of the time. With my parents, always by phone - Dad has no idea how teh internets works and my mum is hopeless with email :) With my nieces and nephews, mostly by Facebook and MySpace.
6. What kind of computer monitor do you own (flatscreen, or other)? A lovely flatscreen that was donated by my dear friend, HarryO :)

Poddy: Songs From The Big Chair / The Hurting - Tears for Fears
Dogs: 3
Minis: 1
Feeling: Pretty darn good :)

p.s. Those universal signposts have come back. I'm hoping that this time I don't get waylaid by self doubt and wander off the path again.

Sunday, August 19, 2007


I've had a fairly quiet weekend - the weather has been rather miserable. There were plans to drive up to Palm Beach with MattR, HarryO and MissE but that was put off until a sunnier day.

It has been so long since I have done the regular blogthing, I don't quite know what to tell you. Looking back at previous posts, I can start with the weight loss. Since March, I've hit very long, flat plateau where I've gained and lost the same kilogram or two every week and I lost my motivaton for a while. I went for my first weigh-in in seven weeks last Wednesday and was glad to see the scales register a 0.7kg loss. In those seven weeks, I hardly did any exercise and ate way too much stuff that I should avoiding. The loss gave me the motivation to start again.

The friendship with Mr Wednesay Night is good. Despite some pretty ordinary behaviour on my part, we have survived and I'm happy with that.

Have not done this for a while...

Unconcious Mutterings - I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Darling :: river
2. Majesty :: HMAS
3. Pebble :: quartz
4. Fate :: destiny
5. Instant :: karma
6. Screen :: test
7. Unplugged :: acoustic
8. Dairy :: milk
9. Benefactor :: sugar daddy
10. Market :: paddington

audio: lastfm radio
video: the illusionist, little miss sunshine, hot fuzz
feeling: pretty good :)

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Yes! Yes!

I know I've been nominating every year for the last few years as 'the year that everything will change for the better' but at last, I think that year has finally started.

I don't have to worry about the contingency plan... As of next week, I'll be credit card free. Still in debt but only up to my nostrils, paying way less interest and no credit card to tempt me into buying things I don't need! I have even managed to save $200 - not much you might think, but it is a record for me. To celebrate this turn of fortune, I have doubled the amount I have been putting into my nest egg account each payday. Once I have settled into the new financial pattern, I may even increase it some more. (After cutting up my credit cards [the recently expired and it's shiny replacement], I almost chucked the little pieces in the bin but I have saved them and plan to use them to make a mosaic of some sort.)

On another tangent, I allowed myself to be talked into going the staff ball on September 1st. This will mean having to dress up and perhaps even wear make up... I have to tell you, I so rarely dress up and even when I do, it is never very flash. Gah, how did I manage to get roped into this!

It is hard to imagine, but I think everything is going to be OK.

Poddy: The Hurting / Songs From the Big Chair - Tears for Fears
Dogs: 5
Minis: 2
Feeling: Cheerful

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


No, I have not abandoned my new digs! I have been suffering from a rather unattractive stomach bug for the last few days. I'll spare you the details and just say that I'm feeling much better :)

Today marks another step forward in sorting the neglected areas of my life and re-establishing my identity. I have a personal loan and an almost maxed out credit card with a sky-high interest rate. I visited my credit union with an application to consolidate the two debts into one and if all goes well (pray for me!), I'll have one debt, less interest to pay and enough left over to get my passport renewed, submit my tax returns for the last four years and sort out my health insurance. If I'm really lucky (and I don't end up with a staggering tax bill), I might even use that passport to go somewhere interesting when I'm on holidays at the end of this month.

For now, I'm keeping a positive mindset on the application and will only worry about what I will do if the answer is no, if it happens.

Poddy: The Hurting - Tears for Fears
Dogs: 8 - with bonus points for the lovely doggie I met at lunchtime
Minis: 3
Feeling: Better, positive

Wednesday, August 8, 2007


For the few visitors so far, yes, the template has changed - the other was too narrow and sometimes you're going to need a broad mind to read this blog. At some stage, I will shed some light on why I've been withdrawn from the world in recent months. Right now, it is still a little hard to do.

I was asked today why I started a new blog (by a non-blogger). I replied that a blogger would understand - it is like moving house and making fresh start. I want this one to be a positive and regenerative effort - there was not much of that happening for that girl I used to know.

Too tired to link and illustrate so I'll just list :)
Poddy: Power, Corruption & Lies - New Order
Dogs: 0 :(
Minis: 3
Feeling: Tired, lethargic, hormonal but still kinda happy :)